So Long Farewell

GOODBYE 2012

*raise glass* To a new start! *cling*

Time

After months and months of thinking about the what if's I've finally come to realize I have no point or reason to be doing that. I have wasted nights with unreasonable thoughts going in my mind, a few tears and all those rants to certain people. "Let go" is something I hear and see so often, it seems so easy to do but it's one of the hardest things I could ever do. You can't force that feeling out of you even how much you try. It takes time. It took me quite sometime and it's time for me to finally say I've let go. Being alone for the past few months helped me so much. It helped me find myself again and grow into someone better than before. I might have lost one but I gained many more who are willing to be there through the ups and downs. I've confronted and apologed for what I have done/been to people I've hurt. I'm letting go of the past so more wonderful things can come into my life and so I can be happier.

One day, I'll find that special someone. Who can make me feel the way I've felt when I was in love or just make me feel loved. There's is someone for me out there and I won't get to find that someone if I keep sticking to the past.

Cheers to letting go of the past

Artist VS Poet

"Never thought goodbye would come so very quick.
But your wish is my command, command my wish.
Should you ever change your mind, just please remember this:
That I have loved you always and forever more."

Love them, Love their songs, I just love them.

Standing tall

I am ready and can't wait to start a new year, I just wanna start fresh. This year's passing by really quickly. Good. It's not that I hate this year or anything. Many things had happened, good or bad it happened for a reason and I'm glad for the things that happen happened. I wouldn't be here standing tall (not literally) and stronger than before if all those things I went through this year didn't happen. And of course I didn't go through it by myself,I thought I was but I had so many people helping me go through it that I just didn't see and I am so thankful now. I might have lost some people who helped me along the way but I also gained more than I lost. No regrets. I am pretty proud of myself but I wanna make myself prouder especially in studies. I've worked so hard to achieve something I've always wanted since I started which is cheerleading. I have managed to be better than before and to represent the wonderful country I live in.  It's nothing that big but you know it feels good. It is a great honor. And now I just need that same strive I have for cheerleading in my studies. I know I can. I just need to stop being a pig. Oink.

Feel

I, Xenia Zuniga Chiam is in need of a full body massage. I am so sore you people have no idea how I feel, I feel so uneasy and I really think I'm gonna fall sick soon. Practices on Mondays, Tuesdays, Thursdays, Fridays, Saturdays and Sundays can kill. I am starting to dislike doing tosses, especially level 6 tosses. It's a pain in the bum bum. I've new bruises after every practice, It's not pretty and it hurts! Sometimes I feel like a punching bag..

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Slumber

day and night I am always tired but at night I stay up just late enough until I am exhausted enough until I can fall into my bed and into immediate slumber because I can't stand to lie in my bed in a dark room alone with my thoughts for so many hours