Feel

I, Xenia Zuniga Chiam is in need of a full body massage. I am so sore you people have no idea how I feel, I feel so uneasy and I really think I'm gonna fall sick soon. Practices on Mondays, Tuesdays, Thursdays, Fridays, Saturdays and Sundays can kill. I am starting to dislike doing tosses, especially level 6 tosses. It's a pain in the bum bum. I've new bruises after every practice, It's not pretty and it hurts! Sometimes I feel like a punching bag..

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Slumber

day and night I am always tired but at night I stay up just late enough until I am exhausted enough until I can fall into my bed and into immediate slumber because I can't stand to lie in my bed in a dark room alone with my thoughts for so many hours

Unexpected

July was a wonderful month it was a month filled with events, good news and birthdays. July babies for the win! I 'kind of' achieved my July goal? I changed my guitar string and managed to learn a few chords by myself through Youtube. School has been great I can pay more attention in class now and I've started studying for my year end examination, I need to really buck up on my studies i'm not even kidding. Cheerleading on the other hand has been going great too, four days a week three hours a night of practice soon to be five days since there's a competition coming up in Tokyo which i'm really excited about! It's August now and it started very unexpectedly, I'm praying and hoping everything will be fine and healthy.

I will move on for you, I'm strong because of you.

" It's funny how when you were with someone for so long, you tend to still remember the things they do, the things they have, the songs the listen to the events they have even after you stopped dating. I find it amazing how some of you words still seem so lucid in my heart. I am honestly doing pretty okay without you, I've grown stronger and happier. I'm not gonna lie, there are days when I start relating you to everything people say or do, days when I start reading that note you wrote which I bring it everywhere I go, days when I look at our old messages and your pictures, days when I listen to songs that reminds me of you, days when I stare into the thin air and start thinking about the 'what ifs'. Are we really better off without each other? You say, you're not the one for me what if I'm the one for you? " - anonymous

Life's a journey

I may look like a fool now, but trust me in the end of all this the one who made me look like a fool will end up being the biggest fool ever. Karma comes around doesn't it. I'm not scared of any of you. I can stand up for myself. I stand up for what is right and what I think is best. I don't do stupid stuff to make my life worth living, I do the right things even if it isn't gonna be fun it's gonna be worth living in the end. Nothing in life comes easy, I rather take it the hard way because the rough part comes first and it'll be worth it at the end of that path. I'm still young, I still have a lot to go through in life, a lot to learn, a lot of mistakes to make and I'm still growing. It's life. It's a journey. I may not be the happiest person living on earth right not, I may still be missing and in love with someone I've had for a couple of years, I may still be immature to not take my studies seriously. All this, I'm living it to time and God. It will be disappointing at times but everything happens for a reason.

Too clingy

I'm sorry I constantly want to talk to you. I'm sorry when you take long to reply, I get sad. I'm sorry if I say things that might piss you off. I'm sorry if I come off as annoying. I'm sorry if you don't wanna talk to me as much as I wanna talk to you. I'm sorry if I think about you too much and too often. I'm sorry if I say things I don't really mean. I'm sorry if I tell you about my pointless drama when you don't really care. I'm sorry if I come off as being clingy, but it's just me missing you.